10 years

First off, HOW did 10 years pass without me noticing it? I have an online diary that I have written in for the last 10 years since I was 18 almost 19. I reread the first entry, I sounded like a teenager. It was slightly embarrassing because if I saw someone writing like that today I would be like get over it. But back then everything was super important and I was so grown up. :D What an idiot.

That doesn't matter though. What matters is that I am thinking about it and I am pretty much in the same position I was in 10 years ago. I am STILL in college although this time getting my bachelor degree and I did work before this. I don't own a home, I don' t have a great job, I don't have children. I have been with my husband for the last 10 years married for 3.

I feel disappointed that I have not done anything in the last ten years. Nothing worth noting anyway. Sad.

It makes me really want to strive for some new and exciting goals. I want to be able to write 10 years from now that I have done something or have something.

Ten years where does the time go. Really...think back about yourself 10 years ago where were you?

First 5K!

Tomorrow is the 5K my family and I are doing to honor our niece who passed away just shy of her 2nd birthday. I am excited! I have walked 5K on my own many times, I actually do it every time I go out to walk. But this time is different it is a RACE! I want to do good, but I have no even tried running in months, so I will have to go as fast as my little legs can carry me. According to my Nike+ I have done a 5K in 35 minutes but I don't know about that. We will see.

Slipping

I don't really want to clutter up this blog with feelings ( I have another place for that). I have been feeling super depressed lately. There are a lot of reasons: People are dying, hubby's dad is going down hill fast, we are having difficulties finding jobs, and on top of that my weight.

The weather has been a real drag around here lately, making me not want to go out and walk. I tell myself that I will do some other exercise at home..but I never do. Which makes me get really down on myself.

I don't know I just don't feel right. :-(

Today I did get out and walk. I went and did 4.5 miles in an hour. It was very nice. I miss it. It makes me feel so good. I have this fear that IF I don't get my weight under control right now. It will just keep getting bigger and bigger. We really want to have a baby, in the near future. But I don't want to get pregnant at this size because I know what that means...I will be bigger.

I am at the highest weight I have EVER been. 10 more pounds and I am at a weight I NEVER thought I would be close to. A weight that when you hear it you are like wow that is big. I am starting to look my weight now. Before I would weight 220 and people would think I was much lighter. I can't hide it anymore.

I NEED this!!!

That is Chef Stephanie

I have been having a real blast lately with planning dinners. I get very bored of the same old thing. If I am having food that is healthy for me, I want it to be interesting and taste good. So every night I try to come up with something interesting to eat. Last night we had Sesame Asian Chicken, and red potatoes. It was delicious, I made the sauce myself. The night before that we had Marinated Portabello mushrooms, grilled green peppers, onion, and zucchini. It was really good. The husband didn't even mind that it wasn't steak lol. Tonight we are having Quinoa and Black Beans. I am hoping it will be good.

I still have either sauteed spinach or just spinach salad drizzled in olive oil almost every night. I just love it that much. I have Greek yogurt almost everyday also in place of a dessert. I think I love that stuff to much lol. I just had it with some turkey meatballs, it was good (don't judge me lol).

Who is this??

Today I had a little laugh at myself. I was standing in the kitchen putting my Portabello Mushrooms in a bag to marinate. I added in the Olive Oil, the Balsamic Vinegar and started peeling the Garlic, and cutting the Onion, and grating the ginger. I thought about what I was doing and just thought "Who am I".. I literally have ginger root, garlic, onions, fresh veggies, fruit, olive oil in my house....and I use them to cook. In the past I never would have had these things.

I love it though. The fresh ingredients just taste so good. They add so many different flavors to things. There is something pretty awesome about preparing a healthy meal for yourself. Standing there and chopping up all the ingredients and making something out of them.

I have also started a walking group. We meet at the college and walk around the track for an hour or so and chit-chat. It really makes the walking much more fun when there is someone to talk about. The time really flies by.

The sun has been out here in Portland and it is AMAZING! Nothing like a good dose of Vitamin D. Which by the way they are saying helps with weight loss. THAT is why I am fat...I live in the Northwest were there is no sunshine..I can finally blame it on the rain..the RAIN made me FAT!! (hehehe)

Hope everyone is doing well.

Recipe Generator

I found this website and it is basically perfect for me. Recipe Generator I always have ingredients in the house, but I never know what to cook with them..well now I do!

Today has been a very lazy day. It always happens this way when I travel, I swear I need a few days to recover from traveling.

We went grocery shopping last night and picked out fruits and veggies. And we grabbed some items we have never had fresh: Ginger root, tomatillo(sp) and fresh basil.(I bought a basil plant) That sure made shopping fun, I was sniffing basil the whole time. Yummy!

So far today I have eaten, Fruit salad( 1 apple, 1 orange 1/2 cup plain Greek yogurt, 2 Tsp honey) It was really delicious. Lunch was a 1/2 Pita, some light mayo, Turkey Meat and slice of cheese. I am planning on doing some sauteed spinach, steak and something else. I also spent the extra few cents and bought whole grain pasta.

Food Suggestions??

So I have written some about my favorite go to foods. What I would like if everyone can suggest some of their go to foods. What is a favorite food you have found that is really healthy and something you eat a lot.

I will be heading out to my Grandparents house tomorrow. I can hardly wait, they only live 6 hours away but I don't get out there as much as I like. Believe it or not when your in college you have NO free time. You don't get to leave school and have that night to yourself or the weekends. I am constantly doing work and what is worse some of my online courses require me to turn in work on the weekends. So I am actually never able to get away for more then a day or so, because I always have to be back to do homework.

I am thinking tonight is a Zumba night. I actually did it two nights in a row without really thinking about it. It was just that much fun. I don't even know if I am having a good calorie burn since it is just a Wii game, but I know that I keep moving during the whole time and try to follow the steps. So I figure I should be burning a few calories. I am still WANTING a spinning podcast to so I can use my exercise bike to its full abilities. I push myself much harder when I have something to follow.

Peace