Thursday, August 9, 2012
Hard to believe it has been such a long time since I wrote. Well not really I forgot my password and every time I reset it, well I forget again. I blame this on pregnancy brain. I haven't been worrying about my weight at all this year which let me tell you has felt AMAZING! Words can not describe what it feels like not to constantly be on myself for not working out or not losing that weight. I have been on a never ending "life style" change for the better part of 11 years now. So this is a welcome break for me. Of course I have a little baby growing inside me well he is not so little I suppose he will be here in 4 weeks. So I have been being careful with actual weight gain from the pregnancy because I was already overweight when I got pregnant. So far I have only gained 23lbs which is pretty darn good. I had fears of gaining 80 or 100 on top of what I already weigh which would just be a disaster. I have started thinking about post baby food and workouts now that the time is drawing near. I know I want to do things differently then I have in the past. I feel like a diet shouldn't consume my life. I look at people and they are so consumed with food, I ate half a piece of cheese today, but its is okay because I didn't eat anything else..Okay that is extreme but I think you get my point. They are so concerned with every piece of food they eat and if they slip up it sets them back for months. I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to just eat healthy, make good choices and what happens happens. Maybe I will drop 90 pounds. Maybe I won't but I refuse to be consumed by food and body images anymore. Of course having a new baby is going to encourage me to exercise more. I will be taking him for walks and as soon as he is up and moving be chasing after him. I don't want him to have a mom that just hangs out on the couch all the time. I want him to grow up and look back on his life and say wow mom and dad gave me a great life full of adventures and outdoor activities. I am very excited about this new chapter in my life. I am scared but I know we will be okay. This past year have been a huge eye opener in the fact that my life doesn't need to be consumed by diets, exercise and worrying if I would ever get to my goal weight.